Living in Alignment
Today I'm feeling great. I'm full of energy and hope.
I still have the same amount of mental to-do lists, but life is good.
Today is bright. Last night wasn't.
Last night was intense. My emotions were intense. Fear, loneliness, and insecurities all filled my head at once. What am I supposed to do with myself now? It's hard to stay with these emotions and not distract ourselves with stimulants, social media, tv shows, sleep, or sex. Our busy lives are enough to distract us from how we are feeling and our connection to nature.
I wasn't understanding why I was feeling depressed the past couple of days. Thoughts appearing and I can't make them stop. Why is this happening now? Now that I'm taking the best care of myself? I needed explanations.
Now that I'm out of the blue. I can see things from a different perspective.
Perhaps it's the first time I noticed those feelings. Maybe it's the first time I truly observe my emotions.
I don't know what changed. I'm only human. A biased one at best.
It could’ve been a lesson to teach me how to let go.
It could've been the misalignment between my actions and values. I want to start living waste free but I'm still in the learning process. However, I haven't taken big actions until now. Finally putting an end to the fear of failure that stopped me from composing for two years now ends.
Align your actions with your values.