Sukkari Life

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In Another Life

If you could start over, what would you choose to be? This is my favorite question to ask people. Probably because I have a million answer to it. I guess we like to ask the questions we want to answer.

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It's a little past midnight. I hear thunder, something I rarely hear here in the desert. The sound is comforting for some reason; it makes no sense. I'm in bed with the laptop on my left thigh, angled awkwardly. It's a perfect position though (that's what she said, I know). I'm usually asleep by this time, but let's just say that today was not a typical day and now I'm filled with a lot of words. I know that if I close this laptop and turn off the light, I'd pass out right away. I've gotten pretty good at making myself go to sleep, but I want to write this before I go. Mainly because I won't feel the same way when I wake up. Heck, I might not feel the same in a few minutes and then these thoughts might leave my mind.

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I'm in a position where I can't predict my future whatsoever. I've been in this stage for a while now. As a result, I think about the future often. I must say that I also got pretty good at being in the moment and letting go. I'm still the planner I've always been, but now I know that things will fall into place when the time is right. I'll do my best then accept the results knowing it's the best outcome.

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It depresses me to think this way, but I find myself wondering what I would be if I had the choice because I'm frequently wishing I got into a different career. Something more creative and less well, boring. I'm proud that I got a degree in Finance, except that it's so fucking lifeless. So in another life, I would be

A dancer.

A drummer.

A painter. 

A writer.

A yogi.

An athlete.

A backpacker.

A surfer.

A trip leader. (yes this exists)

A vegan activist 

Maybe it's not too late.